Things have been a little rough here in mi casa. We are running low on fuel, patience and sleep. The boys are on summer vacation and are so gooey over their new little sister that I am finding myself saying things like, "back away from the baby." Honestly, she is overwhelmed. Overwhelmed with the newness of it all, overwhelmed with the well wishers, overwhelmed with the show and tell that the boys think she needs to see and totally not digging the American way....yet.
The happy little girl that we saw in China is still in there, but it's harder to find her now. She is grieving and there is nothing we can do to take it away except hold her and repeat how it's going to be okay no less than a thousand times an hour. She spent her second night home just sobbing.....all night long. At 3:30, J took her to the family room and moved from chair to chair till I found them at 7:00 sitting in the recliner straight up, eyes closed. It was the hardest thing ever, emotionally and physically, to hear her cry and to know she was completely inconsolable. We are drained. J seems to be fighting some sort of 'parasite' as Mare would say and he promises to call the doctor in the morning if he doesn't feel any better. My sympathy for the dude on the couch is really low. Try peeing 15 times a day with a baby strapped to ya and then I might have an ounce of sympathy. Told ya the patience was running low in the house ;0)
Eme is showing me signs that all is not well in her world. I know this is an adjustment period and I know that we will be in a better place in 6 months from now, but I really want to get this right with her the first time. Eme can not stand to be more than 12 inches from me and I have actually added a little kid recliner in front of the potty for when I have to go, that's if she doesn't freak when she hears the Ergo come unsnapped. Thank God for the Ergo.
I apologize for the lack of return emails, texts and phone messages. I'm a quick second from unplugging the phone, chatting about how things are going just isn't a wise use of my time. I don't have enough time for my children and sleep as of yet, just not sure how to squeeze in phone time right now. I lost my marbles on the bug guy who kept ringing my door bell while I was trying to get Ems to nap, it's not like I can walk out of the room to answer the door or the phone and it really stresses me out. He apologized and tried to explain his logic that he knew I had to be home because there were no less than 8 boys hanging out in my garage, which would totally explain his persistence with my door bell. I'm sure he thought there was a kind hearted soul somewhere deep in my eyes.
Several girlfriends are bringing dinners for the next week and I can honestly say that it is the most help anyone could do right now. I am just to tired and Eme can not stand to be out of her pouch long enough for water to boil. We were hoping that island time would be a possibility this weekend, cause I could certainly use some island time, but that will have to wait till our girl is a tad more adjusted to her bright new world.
I'm so happy for 2 of my dear friends that just arrived in China today....it truly is the most amazing journey ever and I so loved it all.