Sunday, January 31, 2010
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Posted by t~ at 8:58 PM
I thought I'd get smart and get her the color w0nder stuff, to which she hated.
She doesn't quite get why it colors clear and then slowly it turns colors, to which she has lost all interest in by the time the color appears. She's a *now* girl.
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Thursday, January 21, 2010
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Wednesday, January 20, 2010
This contraption was an *okay* time....
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Sunday, January 17, 2010
*My neighbor is flying out on a private jet with 4 others to help in Haiti tomorrow. Him & his family would do anything for anyone. We'll be sending mucho prayers till Dr. Phil returns.
*There is a lizard running loose in my house. We caught his tail, so essentially, we have a tailless lizard on the loose.
*I'm addicted to that Melting P0t seasoning that Col gave me last time she was here. I use it on everything!
*I am trying to redo my blog and I'm struggling. I need a new look and I just don't get why I find it to be so complicated. Kind of like itunes.
*Now my computer won't recognize my iphone. It's rather annoying. We had our itunes mojo going on for awhile and now it won't sync right and my phone is unrecognizable.
*My favorite show is Br0thers & Sisters, but I love me some American Id0l try outs....& if Sim0n leaves, I can't say I'll watch.
*Today was the official first day of shorts and flip flops in awhile...bout damn time.
*My kids are out of school on Mon & Tue. Sadly, their Mother didn't realize that till a few hours ago and it was rather difficult to hide my disappointment.
*Had a snowbird standing on my lanai when I heard her tell her husband, I just don't think I'd like all the kids running around....took every bone in my body to not flip her ass in the pool.
One of those kids running outside playing was my baby boy.
*Got my roots *derooterized*...I feel much sassier without my 4 inch roots showing.
Can't remember if I blogged it or not, but I canned the -child devel0pmental specialist- who was a waste of my time and had a pediatric PT evaluate her. She was fabulous and just what Eme needs. We will begin therapy this week. Eme has collapsing ankles and I need to get therapy going so she can get a script for pediatric orthotics. In the past 2 weeks, I've really noticed a lot of sensory issues. We have an appt with the Neuro Reorg doc in Feb when she comes to Florida.
Posted by t~ at 9:29 PM
Photo Sharing - Video Sharing - Photo Printing
Their photos remain a part of our family, there story has changed us and there will always be a corner of my heart reserved just for them and all that they brought to our family. You don’t have to scratch the surface to deep to feel my grief and see my tears, they are missed and will always be loved.
This song speaks my heart:
I will remember you, will you remember me?”
“Don’t let your life pass you by, weep not for the memories.”
“I’m so tired, but I can’t sleep, standin' on the edge of something much too deep. It’s funny how we feel so much, but cannot say a word, we are screaming inside but can’t be heard.”
“I’m so afraid to love you, more afraid to loose, clinging to a past that doesn’t let me choose.”
Dear Liam and Shelby,
There will never be another you.
Somehow, I hope you know how much you changed us and how much we love you.
Posted by t~ at 12:04 AM
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Thursday, January 14, 2010
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Tuesday, January 12, 2010
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Sunday, January 10, 2010
when she suddenly ripped a page out of the magazine and all the boys were so happy to find another chic that digged cool cars, but when she flipped the page over....
what before our wondering eyes did appear???...
Posted by t~ at 9:26 PM
Friday, January 8, 2010
You can click here: to view some trailers, but it's worth the purchase for sure.
The book also goes on to watch the 2 adopted Chinese girls make pretend phone calls to their China Mommy. That's weird and a tad confusing as a child to comprehend if I do say so myself.
My daughter only has 1 Mommy, that's me. We honor her birth Mother, but she is not Eme's Mommy. It's obvious that Eme had another Mother before me, but to give the title of 'Mommy' to the unknown lady on the other side of the world would confuse any child.
Next this book: It's just silly in my opinion. Nothing bad, just silly. I'm not into the whole ladybug China red thread thing, but the book isn't hateful.
This book is ridiculously silly. It's illustrated in beautiful pictures. The author isn't an adoptive parent, she just had interactions with families with children from China. That could explain the quirkiness.
The White Swan Express is the best book I've read. It's accurate. It doesn't sugar coat the process of how she ended up in an orphanage. It doesn't give some make believe fairy tale about her journey to us, it doesn't lie.
The journey of adoption is complex. By giving attention to certain aspects of it, it neglects other parts of the story. I do believe adoption is a beautiful thing, but it is also a very painful thing. In order for my daughter to know she was adopted, she has to know she was abandoned by a different mother and maybe that mother didn't abandon her, maybe that story is completely different. I want to believe that her birth Mother loved her, but the truth is I don't know and I don't want to fill her head with fairy tale stories. One day, she will have to claim her story for herself. We can do without all the pretty images of cute bundles in baskets and red threads strung throughout the pages of adoption books. That just may not be her story.
Posted by t~ at 2:28 PM
Thursday, January 7, 2010
*What's up with all the insecure husbands on 0range C0unty HW? Seriously??? All the stupid dudes had to tag along on a 'girls weekend' that another girl planned because why??? THEY ARE INSECURE??? Ridiculous. I'd be totally pissed if I planned a girls weekend with 5 girls and 3 of the husbands showed up because they don't travel without their spouses...then stay home! Every girl needs girl time and every husband can live a few days without their wife. Good golly. I don't even care for Vicky, but I really felt bad for her in that situation since she planned the whole thing. I couldn't live with someone who felt I wasn't allowed to be away from him. So ridiculously insecure and immature.
*& speaking of those same group of girls....what's up the new girl who can't travel without her spouse because they don't want 'temptation' to enter their marriage and she has her boobies hanging out everywhere she goes?
*It's stupid cold here in SWFL! STUPID COLD. We had to turn our heat on for the first time in 5 years. I know many of ya'll will make fun of our cold front, but seriously, us Floridians are not use to this. We have thin blood and we also have a limited supply of closed toe shoes and sweater garb. My boys own 1 pair of jeans each, usually there is no need for more.
*I LOVE True Religi0n Jeans, but why don't they fit me right?
*I find the kid adoption books to be filled with lies. They are really disgusting me. I have a pile that I will be ditching. I refuse to fill my daughter's head with some fairy tale story...especially the books that claim she has 2 mommies. Well how freaking scary would that be as a child? She has 1 Mommy....that's me.
*I think the Bachel0r is a tool. Several friends didn't agree. My really good friend thought he was a HOT tool. No difference in my book...a tool is a tool is a tool.
*The C0nvey0r Belt of L0ve show....? yeah.
*I fired Eme's child devel0pmental specialist. I did blog about her and after the comments I totally agreed that I just need to let her go. She was a waste of my time and I have ZERO time to waste. I have a Pediatric PT coming on Monday. We'll see. It certainly won't hurt Eme, but I know that her problem lies within the midbrain and we plan on seeing a specialist for that next month.
*Sometimes it just feels good to dump your brain somewhere before you attempt a good night's sleep. =0)
Posted by t~ at 9:06 PM
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Weston & Mali, one year ago.
Final 2008 sunset
A lot of time was spent enjoying the company of girlfriends. & I had a birthday where I turned another year older and a wee bit wiser....or so I'd like to think.
We even had a weekly date night because our husbands all went out for poker night. I spent a whole lot of Feb & March stressing over the never ending paperwork fiasco when Homeland Security managed to leave our I-700 paperwork in a very unsecured location TWICE. Needless to say, I don't miss the paperwork headache of adoption....though I still need to take care of the readoption process. Ugh. I also decided that my dear husband held a deep desire to be the secretary of a Board of Directors for the cranky neighborhood we live in. & I sent his cute mug to every mailbox to be re-elected. I annoy him. & in Feb, I was introduced to the RQ underground which becomes greatly entertaining when you are on the cusp of referral & all your favorite buds are down under with secret little names. Shamefully, I admit I spent a few to many hours searching for rumors. On a perfectly chilly weekend, at the end of Feb, a few of my bestest girls came for a visit, where I introduced them to "bullshit cold paradise." ;0)PugMama and I continued our quest to find one single rumor that would tell us if our 7th & 8th LID's would be included in the batch of referrals that were due to arrive. Photographic proof of our obsession with the RQ underground during that time of our life. I haven't been back to the underground since China either.
The disappointment of knowing we had missed the cutoff by one day was quickly gone by knowing that our March 7th LID would be next without a shadow of doubt. Half the stress was wondering if we were or weren't in. I was so giddy with joy in knowing that we would be next!
& on March 7, 2009, we were the first group of waiting families to hit the 3 year mark that many doubted would ever happen, we also knew it would be our last referral countdown of chalk in the road that had become a monthly tradition for 3 LONG years.... I found myself with many overwhelming feelings and was happy to accept the invite to my friends lake house for the weekend with my family to decompress my brain.
~~~It was fab~U~lous~~~ When the relaxation of that trip had worn off in about 10 seconds, I ate my way through the rest of March... ...and enjoyed a lot of cocktails on my favorite island with some really dear friends.
I was 'Storkin' It' the entire month of March and my brain was not fully inside my head. My friends agree=0) At the end of March, I decided to say goodbye to my first home in cyber world where I spent 3 years rambling about BOD drama behind the gated community of hell where I reside, my gyno hygiene regiment and the sexual assertiveness of ducks. It was time for me to bring the blog up to a G rating...or at least strive for something obtainable, like PG-13.
So my sassy friend M created 'Adding a Sister' for me to call home.
It was the oddest, most overwhelming feeling to know that my family file was being dusted off after years of sitting on a shelf to be examined for the perfect little girl for our family. I was overwhelmed with emotions, knowing she & I were both existing on opposite sides of the world.
April arrived with much anticipation and anxiety, where the rumors were running really thick about referrals being held until after the Swine Flu epidemic was over. It was almost more than the human heart could bear when hearing one rumor (from a really shitty agency) that referrals would be held for at least 6 months until the flu situation could be assessed better. Knowing that we had already been matched left me with a heavy heart and a huge headache.
We saw our daughters face for the first time and fell completely head over heels in love.
There she was, our Emerson Grace. My favorite quote in life proved to be true again,
I'm sure that deep within the dictionary there is a word for what I felt on April 3, 2009...but I have no idea what it would possibly be. My heart was overflowing with joy and our 3 sons could not have been more proud to have a face to go with their dreams of having a sister.
We danced, we sang on the dock of the bay, we showed everyone the face of Eme Grace and we popped the cork of champagne as we celebrated, VIP style, every.where.we.went.
We relaxed in the pool and my dh was feeding me his lovely concoction of the paradise drink. I blame him for my 10 lb weight gain prior to China.
On May 8th our TA arrived along with some special friends to celebrate Eme Grace at a party my dear friend had organized.
and managed to find a wine tasting event in a local grocery within an hour after getting to the hotel.
to which he responded, "That really did happen."
On June 2, Eme Grace became an American citizen and was introduced to another whole world with a homecoming that was emotional and sweet. I missed my sons so much and couldn't wait for them to meet their sister. They were smitten the moment they saw her.... and on that night, my whole heart was home.
Our family was complete. June was super difficult. I lived much of it in a fog. Eme was super stressed with her new life and terrified to detach herself from me long enough for me to pee. I struggled with jet lag, 3 energetic boys, laundry, dishes, cooking, shopping and cleaning. June flew by in an exhausted sort of way. We watched Eme struggle with her Daddy. She was terrified of him in China, but her fear only worsened after coming home.
In the midst of our fog, my son became a teenager. He is a boy who makes us proud and he was a tremendous amount of help with Eme. She would only let him hold her besides me. Eme experienced a lot of firsts in June.
She ate her first icecream cone!
She enjoyed her first swim in the pool!
She took her first float in the beautiful Gulf of Mexico! She took her first boat ride!
And she went on her first bike ride!
& on June 20, just in time for Father's Day, Daddy had his first breakthrough moment with his daughter in the pool. She opened up her heart just a wee bit to allow him in... By the end of June, we were still struggling with a scared little girl that was slowly adjusting to her bright new world.
Emerson learned to move her arms and feet in a bear like crawl to get to where she wanted to go. This is a prime example of 'how not to crawl' =0) & though she figured out how to move, it also spoke volumes to us and validated many concerns. AND, before I receive a hundred emails that your child or your friends child learned to crawl this way, please remember that Eme spent the first 15 months of her life as an institutionalized child being tied to that damn potty chair.
Cole started his 5th grade year, his last year in elementary...
Eme was introduced to her first Halloween where she quickly got the hang of asking for candy from strangers;0)
Posted by t~ at 9:21 AM